Tears and more tears

So, I am pretty worn out tonight but I have not written for a while. I want to just give a quick update on life....

Skyler is doing so much better. It took a lot longer than I thought it would for him to finally heal but he seems to be there now. He still has to take it easy and still has some pain but it back to his normal self. He is growing up so fast and wants to be independent. I am having a hard time with that as I am still his mom....and I feel hurt quite often by little things he says. I try to blow them off as I don't want him to resent me or church.  I love him so much and know that he has so much potential...I want him to see that too.  So, tears or worry or hurt feelings.

Cortnie had her first "true love" and then decided they should just be friends. She cried so hard but is doing better now. I miss her so much and can't wait for her to come home next weekend for Mother's day.  She is staying in Utah for the summer to work so I still wont have her around much...that is okay though, she would be bored here.   So, tears or heartache and loneliness.

Brittnie has decided to take a job offer from my sister.  she is going to be the office manager of Rick's Psychology practice.  It has taken her a few weeks to decide that she should go. She is scared and does not want to leave what she has here. It is out of her comfort zone but yet there is nothing or no one for her here in Bullhead. She needs to get away where she can meet a nice young man and have a social life. I just worry that she will hide out and do nothing.  She is going to live with Cortnie so that is a good thing.  I am just going to miss her so much.  I know that she needs to go but I dont' want to be alone with no girls here.  I have loved having her live here but she needs her own life.  I am so sad that my children are growing up.  So, tears of sadness and worry.

Boyd is doing awesome.  He is such a good missionary and so valiant. He wants to badly to teach and to testify. He has another companion who does not like to do that and is not very good at obeying all the rules. Boyd is doing his best to obey them no matter what.  He wants to be happy and is there to testify of Christ.  Next week is Mother's day so we get to Skype with him. I can hardly wait. His birthday is the day after so we are going to wear birthday hats and sing to him too.  I am sad as I think he will not be here for his birthday but would not want him any other place.  I am so proud of him....so, tears of missing my boy and wanting a hug so bad.

Rob is still my best friend.  We seem to never have time for each other as we are so tired and running all the time.  I miss my alone time with him and my dates.  I will need him now more than ever as I send another child away.  He lets me cry and comforts me.  I love him to eternity and beyond. So, tears of gratitude for the best thing to every happen to my life.

So,yes lots of tears right now.  I am tired of working and being so tired. I am so concerned for many of the sisters in my ward and so grateful for what I have.  I just pray for love, understanding, patience, humility and guidance each day.  If I try to do what tis right and serve where I can, I am truly blessed.