Mother's Day!

So I just need to write for a quick moment and say what an awesome Mother's Day that I had.  No, my kids did not cook me breakfast; no they did not buy me a card or gift; they had to be reminded to say Happy Mothers day...but it was still great!  We were able to have Cortnie home with us for the weekend which is always wonderful. She only got to stay for four days but I will take whatever I can get.  It was just nice to have her here and to spend time with her. She is growing up so fast (she is almost 24 so should be). 

We went to church that morning and Skyler had to talk.  Of course, he made me cry. He talked about being in the hospital and that I was by his side. He told the story of the horrible Ativan episode and how scared he was - but yet, I was there for him. Then he called me his angel and told me that he loved me. He also said that he knows we don't' always get along, but he is grateful for me.  He has developed a soft side the past few weeks and is giving me those hugs that Boyd used to give - I love it (but wish I could have one from Boyd).

We had an awesome RS lesson and had the sisters in there for it.  We told about heroes from history and showed a video of current heroes - our sisters in the ward. The song was one from Boyd's missionary albums called MOMS - and it started out that we are unspoken heroes and they wanted to thank us for all that we do. The spirit in the room was so high as we talked about heroes in the scriptures and related our lives to them. I love to see people cry - I know they are touched that way.

We did leave a few minutes early to get home to Skype with Boyd.  However, half an hour after he was supposed to be on, I called his bishop in Virginia to see if there was a problem. he called Boyd for me and then my phone rang.  As I answered it, I heard the most wonderful voice - my son!  He was calling to tell me they were behind schedule and getting ready to eat so he would be skyping later.  It was so awesome just to hear his voice - I wish he could call every day.  The next hour went by so slow!  I waited impatiently for the computer to ring.  When it finally did we all sang happy birthday and wore silly birthday hats and tooted horns.  It was fun (his birthday was the next day).  When I saw his smiling face all my worries went away.  He looks so good!  He has a nice tan and looks so fit.  He was smiling from ear to ear the whole time.  He laughed and talked and laughed some more. He opened his presents too.  it was the most wonderful gift I could get.  All too soon it was time to say good-bye again and then the tears came - for both of us.  I know that he is happy and that makes it easier, but I still miss him so saying good-bye is hard.  We said family prayer together which was really cool and he spoke to us in Spanish.  How I love that boy!  We are half way through our phone calls home though so that is a mile stone.  I just wish it would go by faster.  We emailed the next day and he said he was doing great. He said it was not as hard as the last time and he loves his mission.  I still think someone should invent a way to transport a hug though through the computer screen. I miss those so much.

So, yes, Mother's day was grand!  There is nothing more I enjoy more in the is life than taking care of my family and being a mother to my children.  I hope they know that I love them and will do anything for them.  They are my pride and joy

Tears and more tears

So, I am pretty worn out tonight but I have not written for a while. I want to just give a quick update on life....

Skyler is doing so much better. It took a lot longer than I thought it would for him to finally heal but he seems to be there now. He still has to take it easy and still has some pain but it back to his normal self. He is growing up so fast and wants to be independent. I am having a hard time with that as I am still his mom....and I feel hurt quite often by little things he says. I try to blow them off as I don't want him to resent me or church.  I love him so much and know that he has so much potential...I want him to see that too.  So, tears or worry or hurt feelings.

Cortnie had her first "true love" and then decided they should just be friends. She cried so hard but is doing better now. I miss her so much and can't wait for her to come home next weekend for Mother's day.  She is staying in Utah for the summer to work so I still wont have her around much...that is okay though, she would be bored here.   So, tears or heartache and loneliness.

Brittnie has decided to take a job offer from my sister.  she is going to be the office manager of Rick's Psychology practice.  It has taken her a few weeks to decide that she should go. She is scared and does not want to leave what she has here. It is out of her comfort zone but yet there is nothing or no one for her here in Bullhead. She needs to get away where she can meet a nice young man and have a social life. I just worry that she will hide out and do nothing.  She is going to live with Cortnie so that is a good thing.  I am just going to miss her so much.  I know that she needs to go but I dont' want to be alone with no girls here.  I have loved having her live here but she needs her own life.  I am so sad that my children are growing up.  So, tears of sadness and worry.

Boyd is doing awesome.  He is such a good missionary and so valiant. He wants to badly to teach and to testify. He has another companion who does not like to do that and is not very good at obeying all the rules. Boyd is doing his best to obey them no matter what.  He wants to be happy and is there to testify of Christ.  Next week is Mother's day so we get to Skype with him. I can hardly wait. His birthday is the day after so we are going to wear birthday hats and sing to him too.  I am sad as I think he will not be here for his birthday but would not want him any other place.  I am so proud of him....so, tears of missing my boy and wanting a hug so bad.

Rob is still my best friend.  We seem to never have time for each other as we are so tired and running all the time.  I miss my alone time with him and my dates.  I will need him now more than ever as I send another child away.  He lets me cry and comforts me.  I love him to eternity and beyond. So, tears of gratitude for the best thing to every happen to my life.

So,yes lots of tears right now.  I am tired of working and being so tired. I am so concerned for many of the sisters in my ward and so grateful for what I have.  I just pray for love, understanding, patience, humility and guidance each day.  If I try to do what tis right and serve where I can, I am truly blessed.