Life is Full of Changes

It is amazing how quickly time goes by but yet it seems to move so slow. If I look at the last time I posted, it has been three months but yet it seems like just yesterday. So much has happened and I am sure I won't remember it all.  The best part is that the clock is ticking for Boyd to come home. I am trying not to think about it as that seems to make the time go by slower, but yet if I think back it has gone by pretty quickly. Today is General Conference again and it will be the last conference before he comes home.  We have less than four months to go - in fact, we hit 100 days next week!  I try not to think about it as it seems so far away still.  If I don't dwell on it, it will continue to go by. Boyd has hit a bump in the road and is struggling a little bit so hopefully he will get over that quickly or his time will go by slow. I want his final few months to be as great as the rest of his mission. He needs that opportunity to continue to teach and testify and share his love of the gospel.  I am hopeful maybe he will have one more baptism before he comes home but if he does not, that is not a big deal to me at all.  I know he has changed lives and he might not ever see the results of his work but yet, I am sure many will come into the church through his service.  How I miss my boy but I am so proud of him.  I can hardly wait for him to come home and get my hug. We are going on vacation to Florida right after he gets home so that will be tons of fun. I can hardly wait for this summer.

I was released as RS president a couple of weeks ago which is bitter sweet. It was really hard and I cried a lot the day before but it is okay.  Change is always good and I am happy to stay out of the light. It will also be nice to not know everything about everyone. That can be hard sometimes and I will not miss that. I will miss the love of my sisters though.  The last time I was released I became a nobody and no one even talked to me any more.  I am afraid that is what will happen this time and I don't want to be alone.  I have no girls at home right now and my boys here don't like to do the same things as me so it makes it kind of lonely.  I just pray that people will keep talking to me and invite me to things.  I need that so much in my life right now. How I miss my girls....but it was nice to have them home last weekend.

The girls came home last weekend for Easter - or so Rob thought.  His birthday was also on Easter and it was the big 50.  He had warned me forever that I could not have a party for him and I had to be nice - but he never told the girls they could not do something.  Brittnie put together a huge surprise party for him and invited tons of his friends and people from the ward. She had videos of his siblings, his parents, my family and the kids and I - including Boyd.  We had all kinds of food and just hung out. It was a lot of fun. His sisters even came down just for the day.  We spend the whole weekend just laughing and then had dentist and eye doctor appointments for them on Monday.  It was hard to take them back to the airport - especially cause their plane was three hours late. With the time change,, they ended up getting in at 4:00 in the morning their time.  I hate it when they leave but at least I can talk to them every night.  Boyd will be going to school up by where they live so it will be nice to be close to him when we visit too.  He had a larger scholarship in Cedar City but would be all alone there so he decided to go to UVU. He really wanted to go to BYU so hopefully he can transfer in after one year.  I am glad he will be close to his sisters and other relatives if he needs them.  He will go to school three weeks after he gets home which stinks but I will be able to talk to him.

I am going to Utah in a couple of weeks so that will be nice.  Katie, Shawn's daughter, is going through the temple to prepare for her mission. She got her call this past week to Germany and leaves in 8 weeks. - I am glad it is them trying to get her ready so quickly.  We were supposed to go to Panaca the same day but Rob told me to go to Utah and he and Skyler will go to Panaca.  He knows how hard it is when no one comes to our things on me and no one will be able to be there for Katie.  So, off I go for the weekend. Cortnie might be having surgery soon as they found a small hole in her heart (nothing major most of us have it).  If you have this hole and are prone to migraines, they find closing the hole makes them less.  Her doctor appointment is that Monday so I might be staying an extra day to go with her to the appointment.  I am hoping if she has surgery she can schedule it while we are there in June for EFY. Then I can use sick time instead of vacation time and save more vacation for when Boyd is home.  Hopefully we will have answers soon as I am not one who likes the unknown. I like to plan in advance.  Work is crazy right now as another person quit and we still have not hired anyone to replace the last one.  I don't know what we are going to do. I am willing to help out some but I will not work 50 or 60 hours a week.  I won't do it.  They need to send us some help and they really need to up our pay. 

So life is full of changes.  How I love being a mom. I have gotten really close to Skyler lately in some areas of his life but he is still a challenge with his attitude.  He comes to talk to me when he is down or lonely and he is really good at knowing when I feel the same way.  He has taken over as my big bear and gives bear hugs when I need them. I pray that we can stay close and that he will talk to me. Teenage years are hard....and he will need help from adults.  Life is good.  Somedays are harder than others as I think about all of my kids gone or soon to be gone (2 1/2 years).  I pray that when that time comes we can finally move. I want my dream home and I want it filled with family and love.