Sometimes life gets too comfortable. We do our every thing like work, clean, cook watch TV, etc and things are good. I love my comfortable life and really would have it no other way. It is hard when challenges get in the way or when changes happen. I am not good with change or challenges, but I do know that they make me grow.
Brittnie has been dreaming about visiting Alaska for some time now. She was going to go on a vacation there by herself, but it never seemed to come together. Then she found out about summer jobs there and things changed. She decided she needed to leave her stable job and life and go to Alaska. I was surprised that she would give up what she had for only four months, but her faith has been amazing. She received a blessing that told her she needed to go. She has no idea why but chose to follow that blessing. She left us yesterday and it was not a good day.
The week before she left, we were up past midnight trying to figure out flights, apartments, schedules etc. I was exhausted but plugged along with her. I was frustrated, and I am sure she was too, that she could not find a place to rent. She wanted to be with other girls and not on her own, but we could not find anything. She also kept hoping she would find something so did not get a place to stay when she got there. She kept telling me that it would all work out and she would be fine. I actually put her on a plane with unanswered questions. She did get a text that morning saying they had found an unfurnished studio apartment and could move in this week. However, it will be Wednesday before she can get the keys. I was so worried about where she was going to stay until then. Most places were full and cost way too much. I reached out to my coworker who has parents that live there. At the last minute, they offer her their extra apartment to stay in until Wednesday. She got off the plane with no one greeting her and took an Uber to an unknown house. What faith and courage.
I have learned a lot through all of this. First, she has so much more faith than I do. She was told it would be okay and at the very last minute, it was. Second, Heavenly Father provides a way. I am still so nervous about her being there by herself and pray so hard that she will make friends and find what she is seeking. (Deep inside, I hope she does not like it too much so that she will want to stay - I then would have both of my daughters miles away). I cried all day yesterday but once she got there, I felt so calm. I slept great and only teared up once at church. These words were in one of the songs we sang "For courage to accept thy will, to listen and obey" and she has done just that. I can learn so much from my kids
Cortnie is also leaving Boston today to go to Orlando for the summer. She too is entering the unknown hoping to find a job and earn money for next year. I wish she would have come here instead, but we are not near Jonathan. She stays in his home which always concerns me, but I have to trust my children and let them grow up. Skyler is doing well in Logan and is really trying hard to get out of debt. He says he can't come home for at least another month since he has no extra money. However, if he would not eat at Arby's every day, that would help.
Boyd I think feels left out. He has not said it, but I can tell he is bothered that he is the only one at home He is trying so hard to pass his classes so he can get a real job and move out. I hope he can do it as I don't like the depression he goes into.
Spring is here and life is moving on. It is not like it was last week or a year ago, but it will bring new growth and challenges for us. I know we will be able to handle them if we stay close to our Heavenly Father. I am so glad he does not leave us alone.
