Challenges

Life is not always easy.  Sometimes I wonder when the tidal wave will hit and the rainbow will disappear.  I never plan or want for those moments, and they are hard when they come.  I found the cutest quote yesterday..."when you feel like you are drowning in life, remember your lifeguard walks on water."  How true that is!  I am so grateful for my Savior and all that he has done for me.  I feel so inadequate of the blessings sometimes, but I am so grateful for them.

We will have a huge challenge this week and I am trying so hard not to stress out over it but I am not doing very well at that.  Skyler has to have surgery in three days and it is not going to be easy. It is never easy to see your children hurting and this will be very hard. His surgery is inserting a titanium rod into his chest behind the rib cage and in front of the heart. His chest is caving in cause his heart and lungs to be squished.  If it continues, it can be fatal.  The surgery itself does not take very long, but it is really painful. He will be in the hospital for up to a week and in ICU for quite a bit of that time due to the pain. He will be under strict limitations for a while as he will have to be extremely careful with what he does.  I am worried and scared as any mother would be. he says he is not nervous at all and is just fine.  Deep down inside I think otherwise as I have seen that scared look in his eyes.  We feel really good about the doctor and hospital he will be in and know that he will be okay.

The hardest part so far was telling Boyd.  He found out today as we did not want to tell him months ago when we found out.  We have been going to Vegas for numerous appointments and check ups.  We did not want Boyd to worry too much as he is like me and worries a lot.  He was okay today when we told him, but he also said he was nervous and scared for him.  It has to be hard to be far away and not even be able to call.  We will call Sister Wilson after the surgery is over and she will contact Boyd to tell him. Part of me hopes he gets to call home but I am not counting on it.  I just want him to know as soon as it is over that he is okay. Then he can have others text me during the week for updates.  It is hard not being able to talk to him.

We are doing okay besides that.  School, work, church, friends, family...it all keeps us busy but that is what makes life so great. I would not want it any other way.  Family is the most important thing to me that there is. 

To a stressful week filled with peace and love from above.